I think its time to be focused and stop wavering.
To be firm and think of what i want in future.

After studying for two and half years,
i realise that thats not what i want.
Service is not something that i see myself doing in future.
But i wont say i regret the 2yrs,
because afterall i did learn some skills and of course,
the precious opportunity i got for going Beijing,
to see the outside world.

After much thinking,
i realise i dont hate service,
but maybe not so interested.
But if i gotta do it someday,
ill still do it.

And now,
I've finally decided that,
working straight after Poly is definitely not what i want.
Pursuing a degree in another field is definitely a better choice.
I regret not choosing mass comm at NP few years back.
Because the reason was pretty retarded.
It was distance.

My COP was better than what was required and i scored both B3 for my languages.
I wont say that i will definitely get in,
but i think the chances of getting in isnt too low?
Now that i learnt my lesson,
i decided to actually believe in myself and be determined.

I realise the importance of keeping the faith and persevere and
not to care about what others think about me.
Why ponder about those that doesnt care and neglect those that cares?
Why care so much?
If im a bad person,
others would badmouth me.
If im a nice person,
there must be some losers that will badmouth me too.
So, what's the point of getting so bothered by others?

I live for myself,
not for some losers.
Should just look on the positive side and stop thinking about negative things.
That day when a bunch of us stayover at Fiona's place.
I forget who, but i heard someone saying,
'wah, we wait for Joyce to come back then have gathering is correct one'
And then, she/he continued laughing.

walan eh.
that was like fucking warmth like seriously.
i didnt know my presence was appreciated or something like that.
the amount of friends i have are like..
pretty pathetic.
so when i heard things like that,
even thou i didnt show much.
i still feel very happy.
at least there's someone who appreciates.
really.

Haha.
I didnt expect spending the whole afternoon Youtube-ing,
can actually inspire me so much.

Compared to some others,
i think i'm fortunate enough alr.
Of course there are times where i feel tired of life,
but now i learnt how to be more positive.

The cup is half fill, not half empty.

Joyce
I LOVE BOB :)
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